Depression is such a scary, crippling illness. One day you’ll be fine and the next you’ll be in a hole, one without a light. Traumatic experiences coming back to haunt you, missing the people you love, feeling like there isn’t a soul out there to help or love you. This feeling could cause you to create a drastic change in A split second. The power of these emotions is so significant. You hide everything with that smile or contagious laugh because you do not want to hurt the people you love, because you love them so deeply. You don’t see the real you, you see the flawed you and the version of you that only you sees and not what everyone else sees.
It cripples you. It breaks you and it creates thoughts in your brain that aren’t even remotely true.
In my low times, I don’t allow myself to see my real worth, I don’t have any self worth and try to remove myself from all situations.
But I am strong. I am worthy. I am beautiful. I know all this because of the work I have put into making my self. With the good comes the bad, yes sometimes the bad might be bigger than the good but sometimes the good are much bigger than the bad. Perspective. View life in the better lenses. A lesson to others but also myself.
Chloe's Blog 
My darling daughter, you are right depression is a really scary thing, one day you will be up and the next day you will be down. It is easier said than done, especially from someone who doesn’t suffer from depression but the only way I think to deal with it is to take one day at a time knowing that how bad it is today its likely to be a lot better tomorrow. If you try and get too far ahead of yourself it is likely you will end up back in that hole you refer to. Also to take make sure you take your prescribed medicine and to take the prescribed dosage, not more, not less, just what has been prescribed and it will help you have a balanced life without the dramatic mood swings. Never not take it because you think you are better because you need the medication to overcome the chemical imbalance in your body so you feel OK. Never think that there is no one out there that cares about you because your dad loves you and cares for you more than life itself. I am really proud of you in the way you are growing up and overcoming some of the obstacles in your life and how you are developing. You are about to embark on the biggest journey and experience of your life and I hope you enjoy it and grow from the experience and start to develop as a person. With travel baby girl always put your safety as a top priority and you should be fine. I am proud of you in how you are handling your depression as well as how you are handling your diabetes. When you work out what works best for you then you will find your life will have more meaning and you can enjoy it more. I am always here for you no matter what. My love always. Your Dadxxx
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